Never (blank) Enough................
There are so many words to put in that blank.
Never “thin” enough
Never “pretty” enough
Never “smart” enough
Never “loud” enough
Never “trendy” enough
Never “outgoing” enough
Never enough “money”
Never enough “sex”
Never enough “time”
The list continues on and on and on….
Why do we let people make us feel like we’re not enough? I have to be honest. This past week has weighed me down worse than
I’ve been down in a while. ‘I have had
the constant feeling of not being “enough” for anyone. I don’t clean enough. I don’t cook enough. I don’t cuddle enough. I'm not happy enough. I don't talk enough. I definitely know I’m not thin enough and
that thought still consumes me every moment I’m awake. I’m tired of not being enough. I look at the person I was 20 years ago, even
15 years ago and wonder what the heck happened to me. I don’t like this 40 year old me. At all.
Each new day presents an opportunity to change and by the end of each
new day, I’m the same. I want to wake up one morning and attack the world with a vengeance. But ohhhhh, that snooze button. The one that says " today isn't the day, let's sleep a little longer" and I listen because I'm a sucker.
Surely I'm not alone in this.
I may never be a good enough mother, a good enough wife, a
good enough friend, neighbor, daughter or sister. There will always be ONE person that will
listen to my fears, allow me to scream in anger and cry for no reason, never
leave me even when I feel like I don’t deserve anyone and love me
unconditionally for my entire life, and beyond.
He was, is and always will be enough…..For me and for the world.
This one is an oldie but it's so good......
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints,
is when I carried you.
